topay's Blog

You build your shell within years and I'm sorry if I'm one of many reasons why you being like that. I know how disappointed you are back to that day, but I still don't understand why something that should end good become like an eternal separation for us.

Once upon a time we could share laughter, once we think that we were a gift to each other. Why now I was like your arc nemesis, the one who destroy your world?
I know it was my fault, I understand how you were back off from me because of that. But should it become a final judgement for all the good things that could happen after that?
No chance to reunited, no chance to keep in touch, no chance to say hello just because one flaw?

We already moved on the separated road, it doesn't mean that there's no chance that we would crossed each other path.

Life is full of miracle, and I always believe that.

I still can't get you outside my head, I can't move on as easily as I think I could be. I keep dreaming, to something that would never happen.
2 years ago you beg me to stay, for someone that never have any responsibility and connection with someone else... I dare myself to jumped in. I was in my downfall that day, the one that I love so much left me... It took months to make me come to life.
I believe that you're the angel who saved me. I believe that you're the reason why the one that I love so much left me that day. But I'm wrong... Is it my karma? I still don't understand.

I still love you right now after how you treat me for months... I'll be honest I still love that person who left me 2 years ago as well.. I just can't kill the love.

The feeling that I got two years ago I got it back once again this day....

An emptiness...
Like my soul already dead inside.

I'm happy to watch all the people that I love were happy with their life now.
Love never go along with my path.

I'm just.. An audience.

If you like I'll take you back,
With all my heart.

I'm still alone

I know you're not what you were.

Like a flower pulled into parts.
Don't crawl! Stare at me bravely.

If you like I'll take you back.

For myself, but
I won't even share! Even with a mirror.

This is my plan for world domination: I am
unscrewing the world. Everywhere I go, I carry a
screwdriver around with me. Then I unscrew
anything I can - bathrooms, tables at restaurants,
people's bookshelves, trains. Once I unscrewed
an entire McDonalds table in California, Virginia, New York, and all USA. One day,
the world will go CRAASHH! from all the lack of
screws and then I'll be the ruler of the universe.

Haha!